Sunday, February 20, 2011

Picking myself up again....

Wow, I just realized how long it's been since I've posted! Almost a month...sorry, life's been beyond crazy.

Like my new background? I chose this because it reminds me of summer and that's what I'm living for right now.

Here's an update on how things have been. January and February have been the toughest months since I can remember. As I've been complaining about, school is killing me. I'm doing a triple load and working full time and it's just absolutely horrible. I go to work, stay late often, come home to hours of homework, then I go to sleep. The next day, same thing. My weekends are filled with minimal fun and tons of work. It's really been getting to me. With this stress comes lack of motivation. I've gained about 8 pounds since January and I feel horrible about everything. The winter storm knocked me off my routine and being stuck inside the house for 5 days made me want to bake cookies and eat comfort food. Then I got sick. I had a fever that wouldn't quit and it took about a week to start to feel normal again. Then I went out of town. I simply didn't give a sh*t last week and here I am today. I weighed in this past Saturday and was SHOCKED at the number. I am the heaviest I've been in about a year and a half. I almost cried. I just get so uspet that I can do so well..hell I was 26 lbs lighter last April. And then I can erase it all. I can't believe how great I looked last year...I was looking it's all gone. I'm going through a depression with my stress level and life is just really hard right now. I have 11 weeks until graduation, I'm really just trying to keep it together until then.

I have a the Cowtown Half-Marathon this weekend. I always follow through with committments so I refuse to quit. I ran 3 miles tonight and I'm going to attempt 10 miles tomorrow. I have a feeling it's going to be hard.

I joined Weight Watchers this week with my mom. I've heard great things about the PointsPlus program so I'm going to give it a go, I need some kind of focus right now.

1 comment:

  1. As a matter of fact, I LOVE the new background!

    Everybody goes backwards sometimes. I know you'll keep moving forward from here, and you'll get right back on track once the stress level goes down. Let's have lunch or dinner soon :-)